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Why do you continue to live?


I don't really want much now, and anything I've wanted is completely out of reach. I've always had issues with wanting stuff intensely enough as well, not much motivation.

So this includes suicide ironically, not driven enough to do anything about that. I would like the pain to end though.

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I honestly don't know but I'm making the wrong decision by living.

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Cause no disease or accident killed me yet & I'm programmed to survive & to think death is scary, it's pretty morbid but I think to opt out is the only free will decision anyone ever has, but once you realise that it can be somewhat freeing.






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Because I can't commit suicide while my parents are alive. As long as they are here I want to keep up the illusion that I am fine. I can't ruin their life because I don't feel well in my head.
But pretty often I wish some life threatening disease to overcome me but death itself doesn't scare me one bit. It sounds like a great solution to me.
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This might be comical, but I stopped masturbating and watching pornography two days ago and won´t kill myself at least until I complete a whole year of "nofap". Aside from that, everyday I feel less human, more disassociated from society and disgusted with life itself.
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Lack of an easy way out, and fear of ending up worse off than I am if I fail at suicide.

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This might seem trivial but I continue to live because I know that if I die then I will miss out on the little things that i still like. I dont have much motivation to do big things but petting my cat and buying a drink from starbucks puts me in a better mood. I guess I just find small things to appreciate and do that dont take much effort....😊
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Used to be sheer stubborness. I refuse to be born, abused, miserable then die. That fulfilled its purpose and got me pretty far for a number of years. Recently my focus has shifted to creating a life that is deeply satisfying to me. That's an expression of who i truly am- values, interests, pple, etc. I assume this new purpose will keep me going the next few years if not decades or the rest of my life since it pretty much encompasses anything else I could ever do.The external actions of the 2 are the same but the internal shift is massively different.

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Lot of people sound like discussion sound like their considering killing themselves. Dont do it. As they say it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem in most cases. You may not totally able to solve your problems but you can improve them. Try to find a bit of joy in something small in your daily life.
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Well, I'm scared of dying I suppose. What if there's nothing? Just blackness and then puff. Not existing really scares me because I'm not very religious and maybe after I die, that's it...
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Even though my life is becoming more and more difficult I would never consider ending it - to me that's just unthinkable and it always has been.

Even if I feel terrible - like this morning - there are always meds you can take to make it go away, at least for a while. (I just took them)

I also know I can make things improve - I've done it before and I'll do it again.
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I honestly don't know. I have no purpose in life and nothing to look forward to.
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I continue to live bc there are still things to enjoy in this life and I have family and bc I fear death and committing suicide is against God and also bc I still feel like living (lol). I haven't accomplished my goals yet.
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Simple: I just don't really want to die. At least, and perhaps better put, my desire to live is stronger than the one to die.

There are moments where I contemplate over guilt and failures and think I'd be better off gone but then I snap back.

Truthfully, and in my case, I'm frightened of death the most. SA doesn't even come close to what I feel when I think of death itself.

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Lot of people sound like discussion sound like their considering killing themselves. Dont do it. As they say it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem in most cases. You may not totally able to solve your problems but you can improve them. Try to find a bit of joy in something small in your daily life.
Yes, also how do you know you won't find someone or something that'll help you overcome your social anxiety or whatever other issue you've got. Sorry you're feeling so badly though. We're in this journey together. it used to be the title in the Social Phobia World site which used to be very active too. Social Phobia World- You are not alone. I loved the whole title. it was comforting.
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They say suicide is the coward's way out. They must not have ever really thought about it.

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but then someone who commits suicide can be a chemical thing, it could be genetic in that their parent's were suicidal too.
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