Well I will say this, even though I get SA very rarely lately and am much more outgoing and confident, there is a point at which even if you can get dates and talk to girls, your going to have a real problem if you were as bad as I used to be for so long. The problem is the gaping hole in your life from years of severe SA. Were talking about a whole decade you did nothing while the girl you are not sitting with on a date has done tons and is know talking about another adventure she went. I think by around age 25-26 is when the trouble would start and by the time your in your early 30's it's 100 times worse and very close to a complete loss.
You on the other hand have never traveled, have no ex gf's to talk about and so even a simple little question like how long was your longest relationship forces you down one of two paths both not very appealing. You tell the truth, she finds this extremely strange and you soon never hear from her again. The second option is you have to start to tell what you rationalize in your head are small lies you have to tell and you only when absolutely necessary and only until she gets to like you enough that she won't bolt when you tell you had a problem with anxiety for a while. It's very stressful and you never know if you've gone too far and and lied too much or told too big a whopper. Sometimes you even start to dread talking to her even though you really enjoy it because what if another question comes up. Either you won't stop lying and actually lie more and more or you stop lying and then you look boring because you never have even one life story to tell.
That is my problem lately. I have to keep making small lies because I spent 5 years a complete shut in and almost 10 more with very limited social interaction. I've basically done nothing all my life, and it's starting to haunt me and cause trouble. If you get disability for mental health you have to figure out that too. I actually have what I consider in my head a small business that I just say makes ore money then it does.
You have to hide your meds and try to never let it slip that your kind of crazy and are just recovering from a nervous breakdown.
It's so stressful and I am almost sure will fail eventually it almost wants to make you try and find a half decent looking drug addict in recovery who also has done nothing with her life except drugs just so you don't have to keep lying anymore.
Life Shrinks and Expands in Proportion to one's courage
Last edited by InFlames; 02-16-2016 at 11:06 AM.