When was the last time you cried?
I can't remember exactly, but I think that was a long time ago and it was because of a movie I guess, lol.
Right now though, I feel like crying cause I'm so frustrated at myself. It's ironic that you long for friendship and to connect to people, yet you do the things that will cause the exact opposite. For example, my mind goes blank and I get all tongue-tied when I'm talking to people I'm interested in, getting preoccupied with stupid things I might have said, ignoring/not enjoying the interaction anymore. I don't have any problem though when I'm talking to people whom I find okay (or not that interesting), maybe because I couldn't care less what they'll think of me, or if ever they will not like me. Rejection is really huge for me, so if I feel or notice any sign of it, I withdraw because I don't think I'll be able to handle anything more than that. I'm having these irrational thoughts regarding conversations I had with someone. I know that these thoughts are baseless (well not really baseless, but I mean there's not enough proof to it) but I can't remove them from my head. I'd like to tell the person about it, but I don't know how and whether they'll understand, cause even for me, it's hard trying to understand it.