Only about 1 in 10,000 people are interesting to me or even worth dealing with. I spent 99% of my life sexually frustrated but i briefly dated gorgeous women. The only way was to become the BS artist and create a fake phony personality. This was very rare but my point is, after dealing with friends or some women in flings, I realized that the end result of socializing is just disappointment anyway, so why even bother. I have the ability to become this exciting guy through conversation, but all those people will end up backstabbing you or leaving you behind. It is all too complicated in the long run. I am happy to just go to pro sports games alone in silence and watch reality TV now. But like i said, why even try to develop a personality, then meet people, knowing that eventually whatever person you counted on, after being this "fun exciting guy", will make demands, spread lies about you, put words in your mouth, insult you, look down on you, talk behind your back etc.
Even if you do develop a good personality, your success rate with people is very small. Only very few people will like you or "get you" which means you have to go out into the world and try and talk and put yourself out there and deal with rejection. Even talking to a person for more than 1 minute at this point seems to take more energy than I can even imagine. I am missing out, but I don't have the energy anyway, I am too old and tired and run down