Social media, i keep trying to ignore jealousy, but it's hard seeing people i knew just having a lot more money to travel and having a more normal ideal life than me.
I did barely post anything but have been going out and taking pictures of places i have been and putting them on Facebook alongside some selfies just to say i have been going out of my house, but people generally don't go to the places i went to take a walk in and the people i saw...well, i guess they weren't the kind to randomly stop and talk to strangers either, why yes, we are both walking in this...i guess small hill and passed through each other, bye!
I know, i know, talking to random people is fine and a good idea to combat anxiety, it's just if i don't like to be bothered and enjoy solitude at times, i expect others walking by to also not want to be randomly stopped as they are walking.
Still, i have just realized i have been mostly taking pictures of places or myself...alone while others tend to be with others or really large groups, like, did everyone i used to know really grow up to always hang out with groups of 10 or more people!?
I know i ghosted some of them, but i don't recall them inviting me to that kind of stuff...then again the few times i did accept to go i either got sick or they were the ones ghosting me, yeah, sure let's go watch a movie, you swear you or others will call me and i will stay awake all night hoping for a call or an apology afterwards...sorry, i guess seeing people i knew being with such big groups in a lot of photos kinda dragged some memories.
At least some people are commenting on the photos and saying they are nice, and liking them so there is that at least.
Just here to talk about stuff i guess.