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For **** sakes, this depression doesn't let up lately. How nice to wake up on a sunny fall day and the first thing that comes to mind is "why not end it all."

Sure, let me just fall on the floor dead like the damn leaves.


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Thanks for caring, mate. I don't have much else to say about it, but it's appreciated.

I've been struggling with suicide since I was 15, so i'm used to those kinds of thoughts. They've just been coming in full force lately.

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Mom wants to borrow money again. I asked so when would you possible pay me back....um maybe December. She is always asking for money.....I know I still live with her and like to help out but her money management skills suck. Only getting worse. Says she will die in debt and is fine with it. I told her no I can't keep doing this and she left out yelling...screaming find you a ride to work then. She is always trying to black ball me because she knows my SA sets me with limitations as of now ugh.

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Try to distract yourself by doing tasks needed to move forward in life. Even cleaning room, organising yourself is some of those initial tasks.

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For **** sakes, this depression doesn't let up lately. How nice to wake up on a sunny fall day and the first thing that comes to mind is "why not end it all."

Sure, let me just fall on the floor dead like the damn leaves.




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Ive felt like that today. Well not that bad, but it's decent weather outside and I decided to just stay in doors. I'm forcing myself out tomorrow because its been a week since I last went out.

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Mom wants to borrow money again. I asked so when would you possible pay me back....um maybe December. She is always asking for money.....I know I still live with her and like to help out but her money management skills suck. Only getting worse. Says she will die in debt and is fine with it. I told her no I can't keep doing this and she left out yelling...screaming find you a ride to work then. She is always trying to black ball me because she knows my SA sets me with limitations as of now ugh.
Sorry your moms being like that mate. Must be hard to live with **** like that.

What are your options of getting to work? You still too SA about public transport?
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She won't read it lol.

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Sorry your moms being like that mate. Must be hard to live with **** like that.

What are your options of getting to work? You still too SA about public transport?
I think she'll still take me....but um taxi which I panic just thinking about.

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She won't read it lol.
Tell her it's a cook book and put a removable cook book cover on it, so it looks the part.
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She won't read it lol.



I think she'll still take me....but um taxi which I panic just thinking about.
You have issues with being one on one with the taxi driver? What about public transport?
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You have issues with being one on one with the taxi driver? What about public transport?
Calling them....the awkwardness riding there.....people seeing me getting dropped off.....possibly even getting picked up by one....talk about heart attack. That is public transportation lol. We don't have anything else.

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Calling them....the awkwardness riding there.....people seeing me getting dropped off.....possibly even getting picked up by one....talk about heart attack. That is public transportation lol. We don't have anything else.
How many miles is the journey?

I ended up doing a 25 mile taxi journey a couple of years ago, but it went ok chatting to the driver for the most part. Just felt a bit awkward when he started asking me what I did for a living, which is f all. lol

You can get over all those issues mate.

A good way to get over having to speak to the driver is to just pop in your headphones with a bit of music on or browse your phone.

Always sit in the back of the cab as well. So many people just sit in the passenger seat over here, but I'm having the whole back row of seats to myself, thank you very much.
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How many miles is the journey?

I ended up doing a 25 mile taxi journey a couple of years ago, but it went ok chatting to the driver for the most part. Just felt a bit awkward when he started asking me what I did for a living, which is f all. lol

You can get over all those issues mate.

A good way to get over having to speak to the driver is to just pop in your headphones with a bit of music on or browse your phone.

Always sit in the back of the cab as well. So many people just sit in the passenger seat over here, but I'm having the whole back row of seats to myself, thank you very much.
Like a 10 min. drive. I never wear headphones in public...worry about people looking at me (might look weird).....what if they can hear my music..etc. But yeah trying to avoid this route don't want the stress.

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Having a bad week with my life issues.

What I predicted would go wrong, went wrong exactly the way I thought it would.

I don't like it how I can predict stuff like that.

Why didn't I listen to myself?
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Like a 10 min. drive. I never wear headphones in public...worry about people looking at me (might look weird).....what if they can hear my music..etc. But yeah trying to avoid this route don't want the stress.
Youd look like someone wearing headphones mate, and that's it.

People are partial to blasting their phone speakers full blast around here and rapping the entire length of their bus journey. It can be entertaining or get on your tits, depending on how good they are.

Wish I could be like that lol

Ive managed to get to the stage where I can let people hear my convos and know my business on the bus, and I can whsitle a tune without giving a ****, but rapping or singing is too much for me.

One day though lol
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Having a bad week with my life issues.

What I predicted would go wrong, went wrong exactly the way I thought it would.

I don't like it how I can predict stuff like that.

Why didn't I listen to myself?
Whats gone wrong mate?
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