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I wrote to my boss in instant message that i can't focus on work because my sibling is suicidal

Boss hasn't replied and it's been 3 days. i don't think he will reply. gonna be interesting to see how long it takes for him to write to me since, if he wants to write to me, he will see that message i wrote in his chat log..... i'm kinda hurt
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post #12922 of 12976 (permalink) Old 08-22-2019, 06:29 PM
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Go to sleep? Idk if worst comes to worst put a brave face on, say hi and maybe walk into the kitchen, grab something and just go back upstairs. That's what I'd do. I know your situation.
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Visiting the rents, and my mother looks over and asks, "So do you got any girlfriends hiding down there?" I was taken unawares. My family hasn't broached the topic in years, and I was quite comfortable with them thinking I was gay or asexual. I've certainly made it clear that I would give them nothing and it was not up for discussion. I turned to her and said, "My sex life is none of your ****ing business and don't bring it up again." I suppose a simple 'no' would have sufficed, but also opened up further questioning. Why no mother, I don't. In fact, I don't have any relationships at all of any kind, because I am terribly broken. I can't talk to, relate to, empathize with, or interact with anybody in any meaningful way. Perhaps you should have raised me better, or given me better genes, or got me the help I needed when I was still young and malleable. Hell, I'd just like people to stop acting uncomfortable around me, or to not have to dwell on things to the point I feel like I'm having a mental breakdown. I avoid my social life in any conversations because it is quite sad, weird, and limited. But I don't think about getting a nice girl too much anyway, in fact it rarely crosses my mind. I got a massive staircase to climb beforehand. The talk made me feel hella awkward and pathetic and highlighted to me just how abnormal I am as a late 20s man not trying to work on his love life. Motha****as, I just started at getting an education and am having my first stab at being off drugs for years.
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Visiting the rents, and my mother looks over and asks, "So do you got any girlfriends hiding down there?" I was taken unawares. My family hasn't broached the topic in years, and I was quite comfortable with them thinking I was gay or asexual. I've certainly made it clear that I would give them nothing and it was not up for discussion. I turned to her and said, "My sex life is none of your ****ing business and don't bring it up again." I suppose a simple 'no' would have sufficed, but also opened up further questioning. Why no mother, I don't. In fact, I don't have any relationships at all of any kind, because I am terribly broken. I can't talk to, relate to, empathize with, or interact with anybody in any meaningful way. Perhaps you should have raised me better, or given me better genes, or got me the help I needed when I was still young and malleable. Hell, I'd just like people to stop acting uncomfortable around me, or to not have to dwell on things to the point I feel like I'm having a mental breakdown. I avoid my social life in any conversations because it is quite sad, weird, and limited. But I don't think about getting a nice girl too much anyway, in fact it rarely crosses my mind. I got a massive staircase to climb beforehand. The talk made me feel hella awkward and pathetic and highlighted to me just how abnormal I am as a late 20s man not trying to work on his love life. Motha****as, I just started at getting an education and am having my first stab at being off drugs for years.
Your issues seem deep. If you can afford it or there's a free service through your doctor, perhaps consider talking to a therapist/psychologist? Just I've noticed your posts in recent times. Kicking drugs can be hard, it takes discipline and hopefully you've conquered it. Leading a less debilitating life. Education and building on your self is very important, I know where your coming from. It's your core, you need to work this before you look on to outer influences. Anyways best of luck to you.

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Your issues seem deep. If you can afford it or there's a free service through your doctor, perhaps consider talking to a therapist/psychologist? Just I've noticed your posts in recent times. Kicking drugs can be hard, it takes discipline and hopefully you've conquered it. Leading a less debilitating life. Education and building on your self is very important, I know where your coming from. It's your core, you need to work this before you look on to outer influences. Anyways best of luck to you.
I do have a psychiatrist. Personal growth just takes a lot of time and effort. Too much. Things like these are incredibly complicated. I have no patience and most others I encounter have no empathy. It can get a bit frustrating at times. But I appreciate the advice nonetheless.
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I don't want to keep doing this either. Adding you to my ignore list now. Goodbye.

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Keep having bouts of forgetfulness and it seems to be showing in daily activities. I know I'm not the brightest person but this just adds fuel for having low self-esteem as is.
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Keep having bouts of forgetfulness and it seems to be showing in daily activities. I know I'm not the brightest person but this just adds fuel for having low self-esteem as is.
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I have an online stalker and have for about the past 4/5 years now. I think they may have came from this site. Finding personal details and such. I wonder if anyone can relate? A lot of fake profiles and catfishing about.

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messaged her yesterday morning but its showing that she hasn't read it. I assume that means she has blocked me which is weird, seems uncalled for.

but yeah still on my mind, wont go away. hopefully things will happen and take my mind off it or put my feelings back in the basement where I usually lock them away.

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i just don't understand, my boss seems passive aggressive, and it might be because i've done stuff we aren't allowed, but like , they changed the policy like 2 weeks ago, and it's a very very small transgression, comparable to like.... taking the bathroom key without asking the team leader or having opinions about other coworker's responsibilities.

it's ludicrous how uptight they are about some things. and yet they can't look you in the eye and be like "employee X, you've been kind of a douche when you did A, don't do it again"...... it's gotta be passive aggressive mild jabs and beating around the bush trying to explain that employeeX has misbehaved, as if managers are somehow mandatedto walk on eggshells around employees. drives me nuts when i think about it. i kinda need to know if i'm "bad" enough that they might not want me there... kinda effin worried, like.


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My heart hurts sometimes (literally), but its a very light pain and doesnt bother me. I am just thinking, should I do something with this.
if you're worried you defi should go there. it could actually for example be chest tightness (muscular tension) rather than the heart muscle itself.
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this weeks ****-fest continues. my last complaint was this morning but it feels like a week ago. idk what is up with this. didnt go out this afternoon even though the sun is out. thoughts turned bad again. distractions can only last so long. what did I do to deserve this? this **** consists of nothing. it's just feelings. nothing is happening. literally nothing.

I applied for a job that I wanted to apply for half heartedly while I was working, so yeah the email was probably a bit ****. but that's all you get with me, **** or nothing. **** will have to do.

friday tomorrow. going to a house party (probably only the second proper party ever, last one i went to was like 15 years ago). which could be ok or really **** also. ??? and a walk meetup saturday which ought to be only a distraction from doing nothing. no danger of it being surprisingly bad at least. might be an opportunity to talk about this **** but also might avoid that again.

and stop checking your phone constantly. please. this is getting weird.

feelings are at like 5% but I'm still scared of them. feel desperate. but again, nothing is actually happening. this is just nothing. so it's fine. everything is fine. normal. its just normal. I'm ok.

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I really really really need to pee but I donít want to go on my break time. So Iíll hold it in and then go on the companyís dime.
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messaged her yesterday morning but its showing that she hasn't read it. I assume that means she has blocked me which is weird, seems uncalled for.

but yeah still on my mind, wont go away. hopefully things will happen and take my mind off it or put my feelings back in the basement where I usually lock them away.
not blocked, just busy. it's pretty embarrassing that I'm losing my **** over a girl.

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