Join Date: Oct 2012
Language: Fluent in English, Sarcasm and Backchat. Very bad at Spanish.
I'm living in the past, worrying about the future, so I'm ignoring the present.
I can't get over my apprehension of meeting someone new, because they might show similarities to my ex, things will remind me of her and remind me of what we did together or enjoyed; songs, shows, foods, etc. They might say something that she once said, or give me the nickname she gave me.
My future self will be unhappy if I don't improve now. I know my present self is infuriated with my past self lying, saying I was going to get better, and while I have quite a lot in the past year, it's not enough for me to feel it was worth anything getting here. I know baby steps are best for me than doing too much and messing up the progress by going back to square one again, but I'm just disappointed with myself.
I know the person I want to be with doesn't exist, and I know the person I want to be will never be able to exist.
There's no point to any of this overthinking because there's no point to life, but I do it anyway because I'm an idiot and can't just get on with life.
Wilfred Mott: Oh, Doctor... what about you now? Who've you got? I mean... all those friends of yours...
The Doctor: They've all got someone else. Still, that's fine. I'm fine.