Social situations in groups
Today I went to a restaurant with 4 other guys. Typically if I go out to eat, I only go with 1 other person, more than that and I have issues. It ended up that I sat in the middle on one side of the table, while two people sat on the other side across from the two to each side of me. So there ended up being two conversations the whole time and I was the third wheel. Twice I got asked questions about myself, the rest of the time I just sat and listened.
The same thing happens anytime I'm in a group with more than one other person, I just end up sitting and listening. I feel put on the spot when I'm in a group and get asked questions, I feel like I'd rather them just pretend I'm not there.
I don't understand why this happens. Maybe I'm afraid of revealing too much about myself or saying something stupid. A lot of times I don't know what they're talking about or have any insight so I just stay quiet.
Underneath the cold November sky, I wait for you... As the pages of my life roll by, I wait for you... I'm so desperate just to see your face, meet me in this broken place...
Be a little brave for a little bit of time.