So I've been avoiding my one social medium...
AIM. Why? Because I'm afraid friends will ask me to go out and do stuff. Then I'll freak out and want to find some way out of it. I'll end up disappointing my friends and myself, etc. I don't even know why the first thing I do is decline invitations now (avoidance, I know). All I know is that I'm scared, scared of what exactly? I mean, I can list a bunch of excuses and I can rationalize them, but in the end, I'm still just scared. It's not even a rational fear.
I was just thinking this today because it's been nearly 2 weeks since I've hung out with my friends. My summer is nearly over and I haven't even begun to accomplish what I want.
I suck at life.