Self pride versus Self acceptance... and the degrading aspect of self acceptance
This was just something I was thinking of earlier. I don't know the best way to describe this but I'll give it a go.
Basically, we all strive for complete self acceptance in life. Or do we? I don't know if we all as a human population do, but I guess people in our situation do anyways. I.e. people who are unhappy with certain aspects of themselves.
Now, if you have read my two posts so far, you will know that my main problem is my looks. The way I don't like my physical makeup, and the way I would love to look different. They say true beauty shines through when one accepts themselves fully. I am not going to say that is not true, because I know it is. Yes, there have been a few times in the last 6 months where I have felt 100 % full self acceptance. The periods lasted very short, maybe just a few hours max. But they felt great. I am not saying I looked like Brad Pitt during these periods of self acceptance, but I didn't need to. I was just happy with myself and therefore felt very attractive.
You may say ''Woah this is great that you have experienced this lately, it proves you are on the road to happiness and nearly there''. Yes I suppose you are right in one sense. However... it does make you question it all.
There is something very degrading about self acceptance. It is almost as if you have just decided that there is no way you are going to achieve what you want, and that you are going to settle for the non ideal version of you. Now I know nothing is ideal, and nothing is perfect. Especially in the looks department.... I read before that there is no such thing as a perfectly symmetrical face. But surely you can relate to what I mean. I want to look a certain way but I can't due to natural genetics. Plastic surgery is. an option but it is a dangerous and costly route... therefore self acceptance is the only option.
It all just seems like a bit of a lie. And in fact, it's kind of ironic in a way. We are told the most important thing to do is be ourselves.... but by accepting the things we don't like about ourselves and 'settling' for the things we don't like about ourselves, instead of following our dreams and changing things albeit in a drastic manner (plastic surgery)... then are we actually being ourselves?
I spent the last 8 years of my life dreaming of the day I would look a certain way, dreaming of the day I would have a beautiful face in the mirror. I am reaching a stage now where I am about to let go of all that self pride and accept that I just look the way I do, which is average-below average. My true beauty could well shine through then and I could love what I see in the mirror, as well as attracting girls who I find beautiful in both a physical and spiritual/personality sense. When I accept myself fully I will be able to carry myself extremely well and will look really attractive. There is a good chance I will get loads of girls and naturally attract people.
So yeah, self acceptance seems great. But it also seems like a bit of a lie in a way.... and I just don't know what to think. Letting go of all your dreams, hopes, self pride and accepting something you don't like... it just seems irrational, even if it makes you happy.