I'm an alcoholic and stopped because in the end it only makes things worse, especially your physical health. There really are no benefits to drinking (unless in moderation). But what really saved me is being prescribed the drug antibuse, this means no matter how high my cravings are, I'm unable to drink as I will become extremely sick. Sometimes willpower isn't enough to overcome addiction. You may need support and medication. I wish nothing but the best for you.
Omg this. You drink to get rid of your anxiety and it feels orgasmic to finally relax. Then you do dumb crap and when you wake up the next day, you’re way more anxious than you ever were.
I wish I could drink in moderation. That’s what I keep telling myself. “Just get a little buzz then stop!” “Don’t buy a handle and you’ll be good!” “Just buy a tiny bottle or 2 cans of a malt beverage and that’s it” But I know myself. It’s like I turn into a wild animal trying to obtain more alcohol once it’s in my system. I know damn well that I’d probably grab my keys and get to the nearest liquor store to buy enough liquor to blackout from, risking a DUI. Not worth it.
The only benefit is that it feels good. Really good. It’s the best feeling I’ve ever felt in my life. I know it sounds like an exaggeration, but I never really enjoyed other things as much as alcohol. Not cuddles or love or validation or sex or cigarettes or opioids or benzodiazepines or weed or freshly baked chocolate chip cookies. All of those are inferior to alcohol.
To be anxious and alert almost all the time, then have that relieved in every sip, to finally lose my inhibitions and speak my mind for once, to have the confidence to do everything I ever wanted to do, and to just lie back, close my eyes and be on the most pleasurable rollercoaster of relaxation and freedom from this anxious hell, even if it was just for 10 minutes before blacking out, made it all worth it for me.
It made everything I do better. Shows were funnier. Food tasted better. Video games were more fun and I felt like I was way better at them because I didn’t second guess myself or hesitate. That’s before I blacked out of course. Then I was worse at everything.
I’ve experienced it myself. It only makes life worse in the long run. Short term pleasure for long term consequences is no way to live. I don’t want to go into detail about the dumb **** done while drunk, but I could’ve ruined or lost my life and the life of others permanently. It’s not worth it.