Can relate to not feeling comfortable in my skin and struggling with my confidence even though I would by some standards here be considered successful with women. When you're in your 20's you feel like you should be at a certain place, when you're 30 you feel like you should be in a certain place and so on and so on. There's no straight path in life, its a zigzag, a curve, whatever you want to call it. If you haven't figured out everything right now that's alright. Congrats by the way on making it to your 30's.
Don't have to have things figured out, you don't have to be on anyone's time. Maybe a different road in life will lead you to where you're meant to be. My cousin found his current wife at 36, he's 40 now, they've been married 3 years and they still want to do other things before they plan on having kids. He also had the traditional root, wanted the wife and family but its happening later in life for him. You've got time.
I m afraid of not being enough