Thanks for the replies. Haven't been on in a few so sorry for the lack of response from me.
I certainly understand the projection aspect in which I may unintentionally throw people off. I've detailed on this site before how I know that I am a negative, cynical, realistic person or whatever other adjective you may want to use. When I initially wrote the first post, I was certainly more sad about it but my feeling on the subject can change on a day-to-day basis; Whether that be due to a mental affliction or not, I haven't the slightest idea as I have never sought out help of any kind before.
As I write this reply, I'm feeling okay but even in this balanced state that I am in today, I still remain solid in my affirmation that I will go about my endeavors solo. I'm just that type of person. A lone wolf whom is okay being alone most of the time yet on my darkest of days, desires meaningful connections that I have not been able to forge due to whatever reasons in my life. We are a social species so even the most isolated person desires connection some times.
To address a point in the replies. I have indeed initiated interactions myself, approached them in certain situations myself but it never metastasizes in fulfilling conversations. This is not just on one, two, three occasions but after multiple attempts so on one hand, I don't see any problem with being done and focusing on solo goals if all of my attempts to socialize ultimately fail.
I take full responsibility for my predicament. It's just ultimately coming to the realization that I may never have meaningful connections that I have to become okay with. Too long have I been concerned with trying to make friends. Now? I'm looking towards securing my future as best as I can because no one else will do it for me.
I legitimately have zero friends, that is just my lot in life. I get that sounds defeatist but it is what it is.
Again thanks for the replies. If you reply again, I will do my best to reply as well.