Reddit photo of books in an abandoned library. Lots of comments from users wishing they could rescue the books. I was one of them. Figured it was a safe place to share the exact same sentiment.
Poor things. I want to rescue them. I want to carefully pick them up, dust them off, air them out, give them loving homes. �� [crying emoji]
I checked the other, similar comments. Not downvoted. (Some even upvoted.) Just mine. Mine's the only one nobody liked.
Deleted my stupid ****ing comment. I'd upvoted the similar comments thinking these were people who could commiserate...nobody ever does, though...going to remove my votes. Will remove my vote on the post itself, too, since it's not wanted. I won't be a petty little ***hole like whoever downvoted me though by now I feel like it. Why not just turn into a jerk? Trying to be kind and to fit in has gotten me nothing but years of this ****. I'm bitter and sick by now. Nowhere will ever accept me.
It doesn't matter what sub I try to participate in, or how harmless my comments. Nobody wants me commenting. I even occasionally get downvoted for no reason in the ONE sub I'm active in anymore, an art sub. Nobody ever even says why. They just downvote. You know the only reason I still post there is because I don't want to break my streak? It's not like anyone notices or cares about my crappy work, anyway. I'm lucky if I get one upvote every couple of weeks (usually on art that doesn't deserve it--the drawings I'm actually proud of get no notice), and I've already had one for the week, so it's back to being ignored for a while (unless I get another inexplicable downvote).
I bet I could visit a support sub full of friendly users and wish someone well and get downvoted for it. I did get downvoted numerous times in the past for posting in a PET LOSS sub of all things, after all. Mourning the loss of a cat, but for some reason it's apparently offensive or doesn't contribute to the conversation? Downvote. Same when I posted in a sub for lonely people and begged for just a little reason to hold on. Downvote. Two of numerous examples. You know how it feels to pour out your pain over a missing pet, or over years of isolation and loneliness, and all you get is a bunch of downvotes within minutes? It ****ing HURTS. I'd hope you'd never find out personally, except I doubt you'd commiserate with me, plus you probably get the affirmation you need from other sources anyway. I'm apparently the only person who feels so hurt by all this.
I give up. Nobody ****ing cares what I want to say no matter what it is. I've tried so hard for so many years to fit into so many places, but I've been getting trolled and jeered and passive-aggressively pushed off of sites since 2000, and if it isn't that, I just get ignored. I can't contribute anything anywhere that anyone wants or likes. Even when I agree with others, people dislike it. I don't understand why I'm such a detestable wretch that nobody anywhere wants anything to do with me, but apparently I am.
I was originally going to post this in the thread that allows replies. But I know what happens when I try that. Nobody commiserates, often I even get the feeling I'm irritating people. I don't know why I keep hoping somebody can relate to me over ANYTHING but it's not going to happen, my experiences, no matter how common, are unrelatable to anyone. Moving this to the no-reply thread so I don't have to feel hurt that nobody cares. I'm feeling hurt enough right now.
**** you too, Reddit.