Whenever I reach out to someone and the other party has zero interest in wanting to interact with me (as I suspected al along), all it does is it puts both of us in an awkward situation, causing them to want to avoid me from there on out, out of guilt. I really really need to stop doing this. And let others considered to be actually appealing and liked, do so.
The truth is strictly what the ones in power perceives it to be.
Enjoy any good things, even the little and menial ones, as you will never know what impending distresses could descend upon you in a moment.