No one will read this, it's alright though
Hey there members of SAS forum, my name is Loser_0. I am here to vent out my utter frustrations regarding my situation. Please be nice to me.
I never stood a chance in this world. It seems like no matter what I try to do, I never find success. I was born as an inferior being, and thus, I was made to suffer.
My dream in life is to be a nurse. I've always loved helping people, it makes me very happy to see someone in joy because of what I've done. I also enjoy reading about anatomy, medicine, etc. There are other reasons which I won't disclose here, but this would be perfect for me. I believe becoming a nurse will make me happier in life.
Unfortunately, as I said previously, I am an inferior, made to suffer. I believe I am an inferior because I have done terribly in high school, and thus, will not be able to pursue my dream. Not only that, but failing the easiest thing in the world, twice, makes me feel inferior, because the majority are able to overcome this stage in their life.
Not me, however. I am stuck as a high school failure, unable to progress. I tried everything, and I just wish I was smarter. I really do. But, it turns out I am a low iq inferior being who never stood a chance. Sigh, I just wish I wasn't so stupid.
On top of that, and I will try to be brief so this post is not too long, I have ADD, depression, social anxiety (duh), severe brainfog, general anxiety, an ugly face, and a feeling of being unloved. The last one in particular hurts, because that means that I have no one to talk to and trust. No one cares.
I often hear from my parents than this is how the world works, that no one cares about anyone else, there is no "humanity", and that everyone has some sort of ulterior motive. If that is truly the case, then why would anyone in their right mind would want to participate in such a cruel and exploitative world, where everyone is out to get each other, and words like "love" and "friendship" would have completely lost their meaning. I mean, I have my doubts about this worldview, but, at the same time, it seems to explain why I am in this state and why the world as a whole is in the state that it is. It would explain why all these people hurt me.
I know no one's going to bother reading this, but that's alright. No one cares anyway, I guess that's how this world works. I'm used to being ignored and disregarded anyway. I just wanted to vent out my frustrations, and get this off my chest, because it is such a dire situation. I am desperate and hopeless. There is no saving me. There is no helping me. Nothing can cure my genetic inferiority. I know I will never be able to achieve my dreams or reach any of my life goals which I set for myself.
And, that is what hurts the most. Knowing that there is no escape, that time is running out, that everyone is so far ahead of you, that there is nothing you can do except surrendering and awaiting the hour of death to tick.
I'm done. No more of this please. Make it stop. Make it go away. Help me.