Thats a pretty awful situation, your parents are crummy, I'm sorry. Try not to continue the affair with him, there are plenty of men online, some are so understanding and nice, maybe if you connect with one you guys could become **** buddies if thats what you want or even maybe gf and bf.
I hope you can get out of there sometime, just try your best to figure things out, make a plan to get out of there..ask your relatives for help too..financial help.
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