Hello again. So I tell everyone not to slip back into the woodwork and look what I immediately do.
Well, I'm back and still feeling crappy. I'm just saying from my own experience of doing it many times myself, it's common to come across a thread you can really relate to and chime in with a "me too" and then slide back into anonymity until the dialog finally comes to a sputtering halt. But it looks like we do have some really great discussion going on here, so I'm glad for that. I like to hear about other people's struggles and frustrations. And please, if any one of us sad sacks ever actually manages to even attempt to do something worthwhile, make sure to let the rest of us know. Perhaps this thread can be place for that.
So even though my original post concentrated on career troubles, I think my own lack of one is just a symptom of a greater problem with poor self-confidence and a feeling like I can't relate to other people, obviously. I guess that's why whenever I've tried to talk to someone about it, I get this hollow feeling like I'm focusing on the wrong thing. They usually just wanna give me practical advice, which makes sense, but it never helps me because it's the advice you'd give to a NORMAL person, not me. If I were normal, I'm sure I would've found a career by now, and many other healthy life things as well. The problem is that when most people were concentrating on normal things like finding careers, I was all wrapped up in my dysfunctional little brain worrying about other insane ****. So it seriously makes me wanna puke when something as alien to me as a "career" even comes up in conversation. I just can't relate to the whole concept, I'm so far removed from it. But I also can't deny that it's something vital to normal life that I'm sorely missing. Anyway, all I'm saying is we should think of ourselves as people first. Work on your own will to live and be part of society without getting all hung up on "being" this or that or "success" or whatever. That seems to be what most of you are saying though, so I guess I'm preaching to the choir here.
It just seems to me that the ability to talk is probably the single most important skill you can have in life. Talkers have it made. You don't have to be intelligent or exceptionally skilled. As long as you can schmooze and "get along" with other people, the world is open to you. That just makes me insane because it's the very thing I lack and whenever I attempt to do it, I feel horribly strained and unnatural to the point where I just wanna die. Ha, it looks like I've taken over the rant torch from Ruby and Krystal. I'll gladly pass it on to the next person.
Oh, and theatrelovinggal42, I understand about feeling stuck and hopeless. Theater seems to be a pretty social scene, so that must make it extra hard.
And BeachGaBulldog, have you ever tried writing movie reviews and posting them online? Seems that would be a natural way to go with your interests.