That's what happened to me when I decided to write my thread but I still submitted it lol. I usually write much better than what u replied to, but my mind was all over the place as I was typing. You sound exactly like me in a lot of ways, just a male version. I'm glad I'm not alone in this world.
What are some of your nerdy projects u do ? I'm curious and interested since I don't do much but read or YouTube or movies. I also do crafts that involve some type of painting, haha. The only thing I actually love to do outdoors and that's with one other person, is play tennis . But I don't like people around or else I end up leaving because my anxiety rises.
Well I play around with web design/some graphics (which helps since thats half my job, even though I'm not very good, god knows how i got employed) I do some basic 3d things for people, also had to do it at work, just some basic models/layout plans etc.
I'm quite into the whole home cinema thing even though I don't have the room for it but I spend a lot of time building machines out of old bits/trying different operating systems on them for media playback and stuff , basically just trying to find a use for pc hardware which i spend far too much on
I get OCD at times and feel the need to reorganise my entire room to make it a bit more "optimized" to give me more space, which then involves mass binning of junk and mass listing stuff on ebay.
Then ive got the usual watching films/playing video games, I've got idea of other things I Want to get into because I still get bored a lot of the time, oddly one of which is take up snowboarding/skiing because I think it would be one of the very few "sports" i could tolerate, but I don't have anyone to go with, even to an indoor one. I'd like to get involved in computer case modding too actually
(god I'm such a nerd) Though this would involve playing around with dremels, cutting metal/soldering/learning to apply "paint" properly..and stuff, In general I quite like the whole DIY thing (just not bloody wallpapering but creating stuff) I know what you mean though, I don't want to do things in public, I'd imagine everyone would be watching me even though the reality is no ones probably noticed me