I want to give up on my dreams. Seriously.
People know I want to be a geologist and a writer. One of my old college professors told me I am stupid if I want to be a geologist at the same time as a writer. He said it's really hard. I told my new friend today, and she said that was weird that I want to be two completely different things at once.She said she didn't understand how it could work out. Most people are proud of me. Heck, I was proud of me. I am failing this geology course only because everyone in the class says it's hard. That's all I get from everyone. Even the perfect straight A students are getting bad grades. I am not even bothering studying. Midterms are next week, and even the teacher said the majority of the class is going to fail. What!? Now the teach is discouraging me? Something I loved so much is turning out to be something I don't want anything to do with anymore. Excuse me if I am weird for wanting to do two things at once! Everyone knows that I am a writer. Not very many people know I have a passion for science as well, for that reason only because I knew people would be discouraging and think I am weird or not the type of person to do it. Is it truly weird to have two different interests at once? I also had no idea this was going to be so hard. Again, I am also effing sick of the damn class constantly whining, saying they are going to die before they pass this class only because this class is so incredibly hard. That's all I hear is, "I am going to fail! Oh my God! I am having a heart attack from this hard class!" from every student in this class. When I asked the professor what to do in order to be a geologist, she got weird and said I needed to get my master's. The way she was talking was pretty much an indication that this is really, really hard, and acting as if I really couldn't do it. Like I am one of those pretty air heads who talks out her rear end when I talk about a dream. Honestly, I feel like dropping out and just doing what everyone wants me to do instead of people thinking I am weird and not smart enough to be a scientist. I only have one A, one B and about 8 F's in this class. I got a note taker, but the college is having a hard time finding me a tutor. It doesn't matter. I am probably not cut out for this anyway. Again, I'll just be the pretty princess romance novelist like everyone wants me to be.
To thine ownself be true.
"People are afraid of public speaking ...In fact, most say it's their number one fear. Death, apparently, only comes second." ~ Jerry Seinfeld.