i just turned 36. there's no way i would want to go back and relive my life at age 23. there is a romanticism that i could go back and "do things better" lol but there's no way i would fall for that trap is an evil genie offers me the opportunity.
The quote, "I wish I was 20 again" is dumb and idiotic. The only reason I guess someone would say that is if they didn't have as much fun or fulfilling a life as they wanted to, and are now old and bitter about it. It is possible they are also just saying they were happy at age 20 and now aren't. Either way it is BS because even the happiest people at age 20 have to go to bed at night and face the music about life sucking on some level, despite how great they have it.
I just think as you get older you get more jaded and bored and blah or depressed or cynical about everything. On some level, you want more time on the planet, I GUESS, but as you get older you get more tired of everything, exhausted, run down, and your body starts to break down. Great i need a hip replacement or a new kidney or whatever. I think if you catch an older person on a good day, they might sincerely say they wish they were 20 again, but being young is not some magic recipe for happiness. I think it really comes down to having another shot to do everything you wanted to do, in your youth. When you hit say your early to mid 30's i think everyone's energy goes down, or at the very least you need more recovery time from alcohol or running around.
If I could go back I guess I would have forced myself to go out more and sleep with random women, often who weren't that attractive necessarily, so that at least I felt part of the loop on some level. That really wasn't what I wanted, I was trying to find someone of more value than that. Then I projected that I wanted something very specific or was an emotional wreck, which could not turn women off more. You just can't be clingy.
On some level, if you can not achieve anything and be OK with that at the end of the day, God bless because that is tough. Me personally I achieved some great things in the past with women, work, and going to games and concerts and events as fun, and to be honest I still mostly felt like a loser or didn't care much about the things that most people would say "wow" I think you should have realistic goals and something to keep your mind active. One thing about workaholics who work 50 or more hours a week, they literally have no freaking time to worry about how much their life sucks, every minute they are worried about the next deadline. It is good and bad, you run yourself down and have no fun, but you have no time to let negative and suicidal thoughts to enter your mind. It really is true that an idle mind is the devil's playground