I'm being bullied
How would a person who suffers low self esteem already defend herself against a work place bully.
My two bosses have told me how happy they are with my work.
Sandra is 57 been doing this work for 38 years so she is a seasoned know it all and delights is picking on me.
I clean motels and its very pacey.
I feel sooooo down. She has told me I'm too slow and I go over things too many times. So I'm too thorough. I vacuum too much. I'm taking too long in the rooms.
Sandra is set in her ways and doesn't even listen to the bosses.
My bosses get me to clean the rooms when the triple A rating guy comes for inspection. I think I'm the person you want to clean your room before you stay in a motel.
I see build up on the corner of the shower screen after Sandra has cleaned it.
But I'm just me, sensitive and broken.
My bosses wont confront her, Sandra has been in the job longer than they have.
I've been told by the boss to stand up for myself.
Having anxiety and self esteem issues are really really painful when you have someone telling you how bad your doing, most of the time its me in my head telling me how crap I am, but its right there in front of me in hte form of a *****.
Just when I start to feel like I'm getting confidence and feeling like I'm ok and fine, I'm respected and accepted, I get hit with criticism from the old tart. So my new belief would be dont let your guard down and get all plump with pride cause someone will knock you down.
Why can't I just say, **** this. Sandra has done this to others, so its not too personal.
I guess I could say,
The bosses are happy with my work, so I'm going to listen to the people who pay me.
I'm looking for some empathy or advice in any form, please.
In the darkest hour the soul is replenished and given strength to continue and endure.