I'm about to just give up
No I'm not suicidal, if that's what you were thinking from the title. It's more of I just don't want to be here, I don't want to be who I am anymore. I've hated myself for a long time and this makes me feel like everyone else hates me too even though I know it's irrational it's what I feel everyday and I'm begining to think that's just how I'm going to be for the rest of my life. I've tried self help methods I've tried changing who I am but I just can't shake this feeling it's always there. I'm about to go empty my bank account pack my bags and move to a different state maybe even a different country if I was able to. I know this is the cowards way out and it is, because I am a coward and probably always will be.