Me too. Im 22, Ive had a girlfriend before, but she broke my heart, so Ive been focusing on myself since. But mostly, Im just kinda... here. I go out to the store, and Ill skateboard in my driveway, feed my cats and hang out with them too (lol). Im terrified of skating at a skatepark, the kids there these days are real *******s. But when I do go out, for groceries, or to eat (by myself), I really dont give a **** what people think of me. But I only go out when I have to. I cannot have a conversation with a stranger for the sake of having a good conversation. It takes me entirely too long to warm up to someone to trust them enough to be able to have a jolly one-time interaction. I simply cannot do it it seems. I am currently looking for another job as well. Im 22, I know girls like me, I can be cute if I want. But I want kids and a wife, Im not wasting my time getting manipulated by girls toying with my emotions. My older brother is narcissistic, I dont think hes aware of how deep his "jokes" cut though. I dont like making jabs at the expense of others. Doesnt that defeat the purpose of a joke? Anyways, I have no friends, except one. What Ive been doing is kicking every addiction I have, down to sugar, television, videogames, weed. Also, Ive been filtering all the leeches from my life. I have come to realize that even the one friend I have, is truly a blessing. The word friend is used too loosely nowadays, I think. People will leech your energy without even knowing it, I think. They need your energy so they can suppress whatever it is thats going on in their heads. So many times, I would hang out with friends just to come home and realize, why did I even go? That wasnt even fun. I cut off 3 people recently who were leeches, and changed my number. I feel TONS better. I even had this anxiety of even getting a text or call from these people go away. It was then that I realized, everytime they contacted me, I would feel pressured to be their emotional punching bag. Narcissists are nasty to deal with, you really do have to make every interaction with them a loss on their part, or they will continue to leech off of you. I would look up the psychology of narcissism, and how to deal with it, if I were you. Good luck with your dad, and maybe you can find a better job so you wont have to be around him in the workplace and at the house.