I fell in to people pleasing...
I am sick with myself. I never wanted to be the kind of person to disobey my parents, and I did it majorly today.
My friend and I wanted to go to the mall, and my friend's friend who I had never met before offered to drive us this afternoon after sleeping over the night before.
To go to this mall, we would have to go on the interstate, and between the fact that my friend's friend would be both tired, and a teenager on the interstate, my mom told me I couldn't go unless my friend's mom was there.
I had planned to obey her, I asked my friend if her mom would be in the car and she said yes. So when my mom dropped me off, I assumed that I would be obeying her.
My mom and I were an hour and a half late to my friend's house because of some drama within the family, so when we arrived I felt terrible for keeping both my friend and her friend late.
I apologized, and as we climbed into my friend's car, I realized that my friend's mom was missing.
Could I have said something? Yes. Could I have called my mom and asked if I could go with them without the adult in the car? Yes.
But I ignored all of the above and left with them.
When we were driving on the interstate, with the bass pounding and all, I felt like an idiot. Guilty, and stupid, and wrong.
Understandably, when my mom found out what I had done, she was disappointed and upset.
My friend later texted me, on the car ride to the mall after I had gotten into the car, to inform me her mom would be running errands and not actually in the car.
I should have said something, but I didn't want to look like the goody goody, and I didn't want to complicate things further, so I went along with them and decided to keep my mouth shut.
I feel like such an idiot, so immature. My question is, have you ever disobeyed your parents to this extent, or like this? How did you move on, and prevent yourself from making the same stupid decision again?
"I didn't say it was easy, I said it was worth it."
"I will fear no evil...for You are with me..."