I am 21 years old.
I dropped out of high school after 11th grade simply because I didn't feel like going. I wanted to graduate, but I didn't want to put any work into it anymore. Before, I had my mother that would push me to go to school every day, so I did. It is here that I find out I am absolutely terrible at doing anything productive on my own terms.
I decided that I would try again just these past few years, so I enrolled in several online high schools. I failed all of them over and over again simply because I didn't feel like doing the work.
Besides this, I am not a stupid person. This is the especially pathetic part. I have a high IQ and can pass most tests given to me without needing to study. When I DO do my work and attend school, I get A's and B's.
I have no job, I have only had a couple in my lifetime - none of which lasted for more than a month before I quit (although to be fair, it was due to SA and not laziness). I don't have my license. I haven't accomplished most things that people my age normally would have by now.
I WANT to graduate from high school. I WANT to go to college and learn more things. I get sick at the thought of being 30 or older and being a poor, uneducated low life still living off of their friends'. I just... don't want it enough I guess?
I see my friends on Facebook and sites like that posting about how college is going, what work they have to do that night, classes of the day, etcetera. Whenever I see it my stomach turns. I wish I could be like them.
I am a terribly lazy and pathetic person, and I don't know how to be anything otherwise.
I am asking this from you, in my most desperate state, that if you have ANY advice for me at all, I will gladly listen. Honestly at this point, the harsher the advice you have, the better. I could use a good coaching. Please. I am in tears at this point. I hate myself for being such a dead weight.
Well my dad put my driving test like this in my head and it helped me pass, think of this, if getting your GED was truly so much work, 75% of the people you've seen would not be where they are. GED was made to be obtained by any person who tries to get it.
Don't bother with online high school, there's no difference with that and a GED. Just take the test and get it, instead of doing a year's work. In the future no one will be able to tell you have a GED, all they'll see is your college diploma.
Here's what your goals should be:
1). Get GED
2). Go to community college and get all your basic credits that you know the university you want will accept.
3). Transfer to the university you want.
4). Continue studying and get your degree.
The best part?
No one will know you dropped out of high school or got a GED, all everyone will know is you graduated from college. SO like I said forget the online high school get your GED, do community college, transfer to your college of choice, GRADUATE.