Well...you had at least one woman interested in you (even if it didn't work out), so, you're light years ahead of me. The only reactions I ever get from guys, from least often to most often, are 1. pity, 2. disgust/mockery, and 3. ignoring. I don't even register as a woman to the vast majority of them. A guy once told me I shouldn't bother trying to stand up for other women because I'm such an "extreme anomaly" that I'm "nothing remotely" like them. And perhaps he's right, even other women don't really seem to consider me one of them. I look in the mirror, I don't see a female or a male. I'm just an amorphous blob-amoeba-thing.
(I had to submit my photo to a private subreddit once to prove I'm a woman. I worried they would not be able to tell just from looking at my face. Didn't matter much in the end, most of their posts I could not relate to after all, and they mostly ignored and downvoted me too. I left, nobody noticed or cared.)
And it's not just gender relations, but all the rest of the stuff too--in my forties, no relationship or life experience to speak of, never had a job/completely unable to work, dependent on parents, still living in my childhood bedroom, petrified by anxiety, can't even hold a conversation or relate to anybody online, yadda yadda yadda. I stopped going to family gatherings decades ago, too humiliating when the only questions they ever had for me were "Do you have a job yet?" and "Do you have a boyfriend yet?" and the answer to both was always "No" and then it was like I immediately stopped existing to them. (Birthday gathering...? What's that? My parents and my one online friend are the only ones who acknowledge it anymore.)
If I don't reply to you, it's NOTHING PERSONAL. It's my ANXIETY.
(Devetko's boyfriend Stan Brooks & Det. Reichert are horsing around.)
Det. Kristeva: "If it were legal you'd marry me, right?"
Det. Devetko: "Definitely."
(It's legal now!! But Kristeva's already married. ;_; )
"No canoes...no maple sugar...this place is horribly uncivilized."--Manabozho, Escape From Manitou Island