I can totally identify. I pretend not to be, but feel like I'm in a hole that I can't pull myself out of. I'm old, overweight, unattractive, working a job that I don't like with a horrible boss who I have to interact with constantly (and for which I'm totally underpaid), and so on. The few friends I have always seem to be busy (they both have seemingly normal lives), and any time I've tried to become friendly with someone, it's always a self serving piece of crap who takes advantage of my kindness. I've tried to apply for other employment, but no one seems to want to give me a chance. I've attempted to be proactive on dating websites, but never get anywhere (when they see what I look like, I guess I can't blame them). I just feel totally hopeless sometimes. Only escape I have is when I'm with my dog or at the gym (which isn't near as much as I would like) or it's the end of the week and I have a little free time. I feel like I'm the only person going through this.