That doesn't look bizarre at all. A lot of people go solo to events, restaurants, etc. And I don't think anyone notices a person sitting alone and goes '' Hey look at that guy, he's alone! ''....it's something that doesn't even cross most people's minds.
I don't know what area of work your online business is, but from what I know some areas are extremely competitive. Are you able to make a living out of it?
Those popular stutterers you talked about.....are they severe stutterers or was it just a mild stutter?
As far as I know there's no cure for stuttering. It's something that just goes up and down. When I was younger, it wasn't that bad. But in adulthood there are so many things at play that weren't there in childhood. Childhood was nice and simple.
Well you have to understand, i have gone to probably 400 or more sporting events alone and maybe 300 or more movies alone. The movies is not as anxiety-provoking. The games is more difficult because they have flashing lights and loud blasting music and everyone around you is drinking and with people and eating and laughing. I don't drink at all for a long time because all i would drink now is beer and just to maintain my weight, I have to basically eat once a day so i can't drink beer. I am also sneaking down into the best seats and lower levels of all these stadiums and arenas so I can't even get up to pee for 3 hours because they are checking tickets.
I could never eat a restaurant alone for some reason. I have done it probably no more than 2 or 3 times. The other bigger problem with being alone in public is I am alone all the time, so I feel people can read me that i am a weirdo creep loner. If I had a friend or girlfriend, i think i could justify going out alone a lot better.
My business is doing very well, but if i expanded to a premium store, i could list more items and make a lot more money, but then I couldn't have time to go to games and movies. I can make a living with it, but could make a much better living if i upgraded my store, but that would also mean being stuck here inside shipping ads and magazines all day and night. I have no one helping me or would do it as precisely as i do. If I had help I probably would just upgrade the store.
I think as far as stuttering, even if you are fighting to get the words out, if you can finally get the phrase or sentence out, I don't see it as that big a deal. If you stutter, some people will pick on you, but people will pick on anything. I remember some kids when i was younger who would stutter and then quickly burst the words out all at once, and I didn't see it as that big an issue. I assume if you want to get out a phrase and you stutter for 5 seconds or so, and then get it out, I would not see that as a big obstacle, that is IF you have very high self-confidence. I think if it a major issue for YOU, and then you stutter, it will then be a much bigger issue for everyone else. Even if your stutter is horrible, you still i am sure could have a decent social life and have a girlfriend or a friend or 2.