I've had anxiety problems for a while now, turns out it runs in the family. Let me map this out as clearly as possible:
For years now (from childhood) I've had this fear that I've got downs or aspergers or some major flaw that my brain is blocking the reality of me to save myself from the pain. I saw a therapist and I got all the answers I really wanted from her. I was varsity football and wrestling, had college classes in highschool but I could NOT shake this fear until I talked with her, she used logic to debunk my fears.
Now, like a cancer, my fear is back and instead of me being a mentally ill person, my fear is that I'm extremely ugly, and that my facial features are dis-combobulated. As in a crooked nose, slanted mouth, tilted ears and eyes and one side of my face more dominant than the other. As I'm sure you can tell I've wasted a lot of time thinking about this and worrying about it, staring at myself for hours in the mirror in the hopes that my brain would stop blocking out the image of myself that I see, and reveals what I truly look like. I've been looking at my senior pictures and I thought, "I would rather know what I look like and learn to cope, than to be ugly and pretend otherwise."
No better place for judgement than the internet I guess.
Fuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhddge here it goes I'm nervous but whatever http://roundedlevel1.imgur.com/all/