Originally Posted by CopadoMexicano
ive always worried about leaving my house but i did it anyway since childhood but what made it worse was living in the ghetto. The early to mid 90s was different then it is now. There were a lot of thugs and cholos at the time. I dont even remember how to say cholo in english ugh. but i kind of miss the early 90s and early 2000s. Those were my perfect years as everything else seemed much more laid back. Today, I'm always anticipating to make a choice for half the day whether or not I should just go to drive to grocery store. Now walking in my neighborhood I avoid like the plague so instead I walk indoors im lucky enough to have a large house to walk around and achieve my steps. Might not be as stimulating environment as going to the park or neighborhood but Im too concerned about being watched, judged, followed, and what people think.
I never had much of a social life for most of my life, with a few exceptions, but the 90's and early 2000's were great. I didn't party much or have a ton of fun I guess, but i was in Brooklyn NY and there was a sense of community and danger combined. You had candy stores with video game arcade games (the giant cabinets) then you had a ton of beggars or just poor kids asking for a dollar every minute. If you saw a kid getting beat up, you just walked by like "whatever" If you saw a mugging, you just kinda accepted that was how it was. Everything where i lived then was mixed, poor people could afford it but rich people were also peppered in and everyone was vastly different in every way. You had artists and jugglers and writers who were all struggling but getting by and they were REAL PEOPLE. Now it seems like New York City is getting richer and richer and the differences between poor and rich are more pronounced, which is I am sure the same in Los Angeles Chicago, London, etc. from what I have read, you can't really meet fascinating or unique people anymore, it is like they were either priced out of the area or they overdosed on drugs or they were killed or went to jail or who the hell knows where they went. The people you see maybe 2005 and on, in any of those previous vibrant communities are now just boring and stale. They might have a $1500 gym membership with a personal trainer, they have 2% bodyfat and eat whole wheat everything and no sugar or everything organic. They do yoga, travel to weird locations to meditate, go hiking upstate, have a summer home and eat out at fancy restaurants. The residents before 2005 maybe just ate fast food, sprayed graffiti, lit firecrackers, got drunk out of their minds at the local bars, shoplifted, maybe hired hookers (I am against that and never would), smoked cigarettes and/or weed, hung out at arcades, rode motorcycles, illegal street racing or steal cars and go on joyrides, just people looking for a thrill. Construction workers and painters going to pro sports games and getting drunk out of their minds and cursing at the players and fighting in the stands. I am in a 600 sq foot apartment and i am judged at this point for not looking or dressing or acting like the elitist residents here, so it is a huge struggle to fit in as much as ever. Because I did not get girls much back then or ever in my life for the most part, or ever have much of a social life, i can't say i love that time either, but it was better in many ways.