Does anyone else hate their work life, home life and social life?
Because for me, there's just no escape.
I hate work - I gather that's not exactly unusual. But it's particularly stressful for those with social anxiety because, on top of worrying about meeting productivity targets and so forth, you're also constantly paranoid that your quiet demeanor is under scrutiny (and, let's be honest, it probably is).
I can't get any relief at home, because my so-called family - which just consists of me, my mum and my alleged step-dad - is completely dysfunctional. They argue incessantly about trivial nonsense, and I often end up being dragged into their BS despite my trying to distance myself from them. I hate it here, but realistically, can't afford to move out.
My social life is non-existent. I often feel a strong desire to go somewhere other than home and work, but there's nowhere to go, nothing to do, and more importantly, nobody who enjoys my company. I have been to the cinema by myself a couple of times, sat in restaurants alone (and by restaurants I mean KFC and McDonald's); outwardly, I try to project the image of being nonplussed and comfortable in my own company, but in reality I'm just bored out of my mind.
Put simply, life is unbearable. I hate it. I need to find a way out of this hell.