Tbh - with me it's more complicated than that. I've had situations on trams, trains etc - where what I would want to do to the person would end up with me in jail. Anger isn't the word for it with me - it's more pure hatred and rage and I just want them to no longer exist.
I try very hard to avoid situations like that - because I know how I am. Sometimes I wonder where it comes from. Whoever I inherited that **** from I certainly wouldn't want to meet in a dark alley, let's put it that way.
hmmmm i forgot to add this as well now that you brought it up, i never had the problem when im out and about, like i am sometimes almost opposite when im out and about per say and sometimes speak freely about my grievances with the person when it comes to a stranger like if they decide to touch me disrespectfully i would quickly tell em what I need them to do to respect my boundaries.
For example, I was walking back to my car one day and this guy parked really close and he didnt have to mention anything cause I didnt really notice he was close parking but said to me as he was getting out of his car that i need not worry that he didnt scratch my car and i reacted by saying to tell em to hold up and i inspected my car and was preventing him from going anywhere cause i did a motion gesture with my hands like he better not go anywhere. Boss **** basically lol.
Sometimes it gets me in trouble cause one time I got in a road rage incident after telling this one idiot of his idiotic driving mistakes to which he reacted by getting racial, trying to run me off the road and also hitting my side mirror with his hand. Now, this was one time where I can clearly say I was intimidated to return the same or more amount of disrespect back because after I got a clear look at the dude, he had criminal written all over him.
Tattoos on his head, bald, and using a lot of racial insults im thinking if I chase thia guy, I had a bat in my car not that i was going to use it, but had I chased him and decided to return the same or more amount of ****ery, i assume the guy is probably packing as well and here I am with just a bat so I took the L and thought its better to let this low life get away with it the f****er.
Or the other day, I was at BJs and since we are in Covid times, we all were in one line and an employee guiding customers to where to go and when I was up, he pointed me to the non self checkout line where there were like 30 people there(exaggerating lol) while a selfcheck out was already opening up so I started to walk to the 30 people line then stopped immediately after seeing the amount of people, snapped at him and told him that I was going to self checkout line and said that there were 30 people at the line lmao.
Basically, i feel. i have no problem being assertive or sometimes be an A hole when it comes to being out and about.
But its mostly in situations like in the workplace, places where ill be around people that I will probably see more than one day, or with friends that arent part of my actual family. This is where I need work at.
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