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post #1 of 50 (permalink) Old 07-17-2018, 08:04 PM Thread Starter
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Do you ever just look in the mirror and think "what am I?"


Do you ever just look into a mirror at the piece of organic matter and psychological constructs that stands before you, and wonder any of the following?


"what the hell even am i?"

"What am i doing?"

"Who am i?"

"Where am i?"

"Why do i see an alien in the mirror?"
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I usually think: "Oh God, what is that?! Kill it with fire!"

But honestly I just never look in the mirror.

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I believe there were a few times that were scattered about. In fact, there was one incident where I exited the shower, and didn't know who I was anymore. I looked at my hands, and didn't have a referential concept and label as to what I was actually looking at, and briefly peeked at the mirror to discover the same effect. Perhaps the shower was symbolic of "cleansing" the egoic gunk from the system to reveal pure, unadulterated consciousness. *shrugs*

There was another incident where I thought about my name, and repeatedly asked who resided behind the name. This is especially unusual in my experience as I'm pretty wound down by bodily / mental tensions in general that keep me relatively stuck / "grounded" in this crappy "default" state of being.

Interesting how some of this stuff seemingly comes out of nowhere.
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In the shower if I'm aware then it gets weird, I don't look at my naked body in the mirror I think because my face is there too. Other than that I think a lot of different stuff at different times if I see myself in a mirror.

Bigger problem is the way I come across to others irl.

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Always ends in something weird. I try to avoid looking at that loon.

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Seems like the lack if familiarity with one's self is most likely a symptom of depersonalization disorder. Although i wouldnt call it a disorder lol, since seeing that we live in a world where our perception of reality is subjective, depersonalization is probably a more accurate perspective to view life from. Also helps emotionally by distracting ourselves from our ego(sense of self) and allowing us to navigate through life without being bound to some kind of sense of who we really are. Because lets face it... most people who have social anxiety aren't very happy with their self identity anyway.
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No. I don't need to look at myself in the mirror to do that. I just constantly think to myself about this.

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I feel that all the time! Don’t even know who I am. There’s no personality there. Just nothing staring back. Totally feel I’ve lost my identity. I think trauma and hardship have robbed me of it. All I am is bad feelings.
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I rarely look into the mirror but when I do I think I do ponder what I look like to people and what they think of me. As for wondering about myself I already do that in my head.

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I ask myself and talk to myself about this very topic pretty often. "Who are you", "I don't even remember who I am anymore" are usually things I say when look in the mirror.
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More like "****, that's an ugly thing."

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I look in the mirror and see a man, and feel like a man in some way's, but inside is a fragile, lost child who need's help and crave's love, and to be told that everything will be better and OK from now on.
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Do you ever just look into a mirror at the piece of organic matter and psychological constructs that stands before you, and wonder any of the following?


"what the hell even am i?"

"What am i doing?"

"Who am i?"

"Where am i?"

"Why do i see an alien in the mirror?"
No. That's weird as ****. Sounds like something a lunatic would do in a movie scene. Either that or someone very high on drugs.
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I usually think: "Oh God, what is that?! Kill it with fire!"

But honestly I just never look in the mirror.
This is pretty much me.

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I think; oh you are a decent looking guy now why can't you act normal.

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