A cracked polystyrene man
Join Date: Oct 2005
Location: The same deep water as you
Yeah I can relate. Up until a few weeks ago, I guess I was stable - I had been in my role for 5 years, gained respect and made friends, but I still had many, many problems (thinking certain colleagues didn't like me, thinking the women there thought I was a creep, because of my odd stares, etc, etc).
About a month a go I decided to test myself and go for a position in a top company. I was so excited, but 2 1/2 weeks into the job, although I love the location and the role itself is great, I feel like I'm having the same anxiety issues I had when I started in my old positions 5 years ago. Not knowing when to say 'hello' to people, thinking colleagues don't like me - it's very difficult. I'm assuming things will get better over time, but right now, after being in a relatively comfortable environment, socially, I'm finding the mental adjustment draining. I guess it's hard for anyone, but for sufferers of SA It's very difficult.
It's easier for me to get closer to heaven
Than ever feel whole again....