ssɐlƃ ƃuᴉʞool ǝɥʇ ɥƃnoɹɥ┴
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: Florida, Oosa
No, I don't feel that way very often anymore. I don't think I am highly qualified and elevated above others, but I don't have that depressive feeling that I am not good enough for society. I think there was a point where I just did not want to be part of it all anymore, where I just wanted to get away from the majority of the world and ever since then I have felt a lot happier.
For example, right now I can program a very cheesy game or application, with horrible graphics, and sound, but I just don't care - because I am doing it for myself, for my own enjoyment, not for the enjoyment of others. I can have fun drawing a picture, that is absolutely lousy and it doesn't bother me, because that art is not meant for others. I stopped seeking the approval of others, and in doing so, my own life has improved. Of course, I want nothing to do with most people, to begin with, so that makes it easier. You want to see some shoddy web design, click on my web page and bare witness to horrible photography, lousy HTML, poor grammar and all of that fun stuff. I just don't care about being adequate anymore, I don't care how competent others see me anymore.. the only thing that bothers me is that some people will see my flaws and try to get an ego boost by taking advantage of them.
There will always be people who are better than me at a plethora of things, but I don't need to be as good as they are in order to enjoy the things I do.
Live and let live
"Whoever fights monsters should
see to it that in the process he does not become a
monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss,
the abyss will gaze back into you."