Anyone? Feeling incompetent, inadequate?
I know, one person's issue no matter how understandable we try to be cannot really be understood. Sometimes more than the advice or encouraging words, hearing stories about people being on the same boat tend to be relieving in its own sweet way. Just wanted to say that I've been feeling incompetent and unfit in my field/choice of work comparing myself to other experts or even the ones that claim to be experts, I find amusing to see their level of confidence and how they pretend to be something or someone they are not!! My problem is that I can't get myself to be in a classroom environment if I'm to be the student because of my past experience so I find myself trying to up my standards by doing the classroom thing online where most things are less stressful and this makes me feel guilty that I can't get my knowledge certified like how others do because of which I feel underqualified and feel inferior seeing people handling stuff so well be it teaching, coaching, tutoring, lecturing etc. I know I'm good at this but still I feel there are people who know better than me and that gets me anxious and makes me feel guilty. I don't know I can't think of any other field since this was my passion since my childhood but still I feel when it comes to qualifications nobody values your skills no matter how good you are unless you have proof for it and that's paper qualification. I tend to worry about the things I know double-checking in spite of my knowing the answers and also I know stuff about feeling like this if I'm to comfort someone I'd be a pro at it but trying to get my mind to make me feel better I feel dumb even though I know what I should do. In short everyone is an expert in their own field and I feel bad about myself I compare myself discreetly when someone walks past in an office attire feeling low that I can't get myself to be in such a position. I took up a job and now I am questioning myself at times whether I could do it or not then again I feel that only I could do it but when I fail to understand the subject material it gives me a nervous breakdown and I can't quit and I don't want to quit but still I spend the rest of the day feeling agitated and worrying myself as to how I'm going to do it on that day. PM me if you are having the same issues I have to prepare for my work and I don't know whether I've managed to convey my feelings in this long, boring paragraph. Sorry for taking your time if you are reading this and thank you for reading this.