This has been a crazy year, even before the whole virus got started. I really expected some of it was coming anyway. In my experience, when crap happens, it starts to really pile on, so I guess I'm not that surprised. I'm just trying to push through it, and hoping greener fields are ahead at some point, even if I can't see it yet. In fact, I know there will be.
Sorry to hear about what you're going through. I know what you mean about feeling disconnected mentally from the things you like. I've had the same, it is the stress and depression that causes it.
Underneath the cold November sky, I wait for you... As the pages of my life roll by, I wait for you... I'm so desperate just to see your face, meet me in this broken place...
Be a little brave for a little bit of time.