Hi everyone. FYI, Im new here. Plez take care of me. Theres so many things I want to get out of my chest. I just write what I can. And if ur reading this, then thank u.
Wow, I would never have thought that I got to meet someone the same as me. And to think the situation is exactly the same.I m sorry about your situation too pal. Trust me when I say, I know what it feels like.
Call me a hypocrite if u want, but if pretending to be a fool, kind, naÔve, polite kid outside and (only sometimes) at home, and smiling each day like crazy, pretending like I donít hv problems or a care in the world, will make people happy, then Im still doin it. I donít know, Im just so used to it now that its like a switch in my brain. And the thing is, I donít trust people to help me, butÖ I feel so sick and lonely these days that its almost unbearable. I want help, but no matter how many people say that they would help out or listen, I would smile and say no, I donít have any problemsÖ
Im just so sick of everything and everyone around me. Its getting harder and harder to smile everyday. N u can say that I keep my distance even though Iím the cheerful friendly type in front of people. To me, if I stay away from people, they couldnít hurt me, and I couldnít do the same to them. I donít trust people, because I know, people tend to disappoint. I pretend everyday to satisfy people around me, butÖ
Iím sorry . there just too much, I need some time to think carefully, and write another of my ridiculous complaints.
I'm sory, I know I may not hv big problems and mayb Iím overly sensitive but, I just wanted to get this of my chest. Thatís y, I hope you can keep ur thoughts to urself after reading this. Donít get me wrong, Iím not trying to be rude butÖwell, u know what I mean.