I'm struggling with this. It's like I don't know how to feel excited for or satisfied from activities. I've been depressed for a long time, sure, but I should have some kind of positive experiences. Add to this the social phobia and my life is miserable. I can't adequately put this in words, try as I might. There's this feeling of dread that won't go away.
I sit here and stare at this computer screen and wonder what I have to do to improve things. I've tried medication, therapy, forcing myself into activities and some social situations.. I'm going to be attending a support group soon. But I'm disconnected, unable to take in what is happening around me.
It's a very lonely road I'm going down. Typically someone remembers a time when they were better off. Don't know exactly where I was going with this but I guess I'm just hoping for some relief.