Join Date: Aug 2018
Language: Portuguese, French, German, English
I have had so many addictions I lost track. But a small list :
Very first addiction Valium (took it for over a year at hight doses at the end - 40/50 mg daily), after that I switched to something even more potent (diclazepam). Not registered as a med but research substance. So easy to get and 10x more potent than diazepam. Valium doesn't even compare to the effect you get with diclazepam.
After nearly 18 months of daily abuse, I quite cold turkey. Believe it or not, but I thought I was a goner. The first two days are fine because of the long half life.
After the third you start to feel very bad. The fourth day was HELL. I could barely stand. For about a few hours I kept vomiting and vomiting. At one point, I started to feel like I was going to have a seizure and decided to take a small dose of Valium (2.5 mg) and it really helped. After six days I was feeling way better. And after 10 days, I considered myself off the benzos.
For the next 2 years (yes two years) I didn't took a single benzo pill. Only started again because of problems at work with a coworker. But what I am taking is very small. Max 5 mg Valium per day or sometimes 5 mg clozan.
Than : Phenibut. After only two weeks of usage, I found myself addicted to it. Was quite unexpectedly hard to stop. For two days couldn't leave home, neither eat. But I got over it and threw away what I had left.
Than : Opioids. I took many different opioids. Oxycodone, Durogesic (fentanyl), codein, pholcodine, ethylmorphine etc.
I never took them for long periods, so withdrawal was never very bad and I always got very easily off them. It's also due to the fact that it is very difficult to get those "meds" out of my workplace. So impossible to get addicted.
Alcool : The first year in university, I used to drink a lot to somehow control my SA. Could go up to a few beers per day. I eventually stopped drinking because I was afraid of failing the year because of it. Nowadays, I barely ever drink.
I am probably forgetting a few others. The sad part, none of them actually helped me with my SA.
"Rome will lose the faith and become the seat of the antichrist." ~ Our Lady of La Salette