I usually don't look forward to much and I felt suicidal lately, but right now the only one thing I am looking forward to is playing Fallout 4 when it comes out this November. What is one thing you are looking forward to?
Fallout 4 is going to be our best friendsYeah, pretty much the same, somes video games to distract myself from my dark thoughts... but in the grand scheme of things, not a lot. Each time i try to make projects they're later being replaced by suicidal thoughts so it's a real hindrance.
Yes I have given up on trying to make friends, I decided today I am done with trying to get close to anyone, its always a waste of time. I wanted to be loved too, but no one will ever love me no matter what so I give up. Video games are the only friends I'll ever have. And my future dog too.I don't look forward to anything anymore. I've finally learned that you can't count on anything or anyone.
I have work\life goals and I have desires for being loved and loving.
But, I can only live a day at a time because tomorrow is out of my control.