it's time to let go
Hey there, I haven't been on this website for a while now, but I'm sure if you search somewhere in the history of previous posts you will find my frustrated outbreaks, and that's ok. My life hasn't changed much since. It's even more frustrating now and I still feel as alone as ever, but that's ok too, because now I know it is not my fault. It's just life, and you just gotta realize that nothing in this life is consistent, not pain, and not happiness either, but it's funner that way. You just gotta have a comical view on life. I still think whatever I say is awkward and kinda weird, but now I don't care anymore. You only get one chance to say what is on your mind and to express yourself, and it's stupid not to use it because some random person might think something negative of you. Who cares? You live only once, and I want to do and say and experience all I can before I die, despite of what people think of me. Odds are you won't even be seeing the people you try so hard to impress five years from now, but the amazing feeling of letting go and peace of mind you get from it will last a lifetime. Just accept the circumstances and who you are, and make the best out of them. Don't blame your problems on social anxiety, don't blame anything on anything, it is what it is. And trust me, it's so much greater to be scared, embarassed, nervous, and any other emotion that creeps up on you whenever you try to live your life to the fullest, than to one day find yourself haunted by bitter regret for all the things you could've done but didn't just because some ***hole might've thought something bad of you. It's never too late. We've all missed out on a lot because of SA, and that's ok, because in return we got a better understanding of human struggles and hardships. But starting now, it's enough. It's time to let go, and it's time to be happy. So to whoever bothered reading this long long post until the end I truly hope you embrace your life for what it is, and love yourself for who you are, and find peace in yourself despite all the difficulties.