Originally Posted by Perfectionist1
Thank you splendidbob, I very much agree with you. I was playing drums today and I just had an epiphany... I could easily play a certain beat with nearly no thought process but years ago it took me extreme focus and constant dedication to nail the beat. Constant repetition and it will become second nature.
I'm sorry CBT did not have much effect on your SA. I have gone through it before but I lacked the dedication to stick with it so I did not notice much either but now I'm very much so trying to stay determined. How are you coping now?
heh avoidance, tbh
- not something to be recommended.
I am (hopefully) on a waiting list for more extensive therapy here in the UK, but its notoriously flaky here for long term therapy.
For me there are several factors that seem to mess up CBT. Firstly I suffer from pure O OCD (though this is fairly mild now). It makes it very troublesome doing things like though challenging because this kinda prods the beast, so it isn't something I particularly relish doing. I also have pretty bad motivational problems, so its sortof a catch 22 for me.
Your observation is correct about the drums I think, and I think part of the problem with CBT as it is applied here is there isn't emphasis on the long term nature of the treatment. Adjusting your thinking is likely going to take a long time to do. Thinking of this in terms of re conditioning yourself (rather than simply 'altering thoughts') I suspect is a more useful perspective.
At some point I do intend to devise my own form of therapy, but as always, its getting round to it
I wonder if there is some kind of easy to complete self assessment quiz you could fill out on a weekly basis or so, just to keep an eye on progress?