I decided coffee affects me in negative way that tea doesn't, that it causes fear whereas tea is safe, so I've just been drinking tea since Saturday. It's good but the big reduction in caffeine is so hard. Caffeine is such a tricky thing. It increases anxiety but it also increases mood. And now I'm still having trouble sleeping and have not been able to run, which I feel I have to do to mitigate the anxiety producing effect of caffeine, but my back hurts, again and I am so tired and sore, again. That makes me want more caffeine and that also makes me have less hope.