I think I've struggled with more or less what you're talking about at least since I finished college nearly 2 years ago. To a lesser extent before that maybe.
With me though... I get the feeling I can't enjoy anything because I know I have other more productive things to do and the guilt and nagging feeling stops me from relaxing and living the moment enough to immerse myself properly in what I'm trying to enjoy.
It makes though in my case anyway I think. I need to get a job but the OCD and SA have made that complicated.
I have my moments now and then though. Very unpredictable though.
Yep, that's about how I feel in general most of the time.
No real highs or lows anymore much... that feeling of coming home from school tired and stressed and unwinding completely guiltlessly was great some years ago.
I was on Prozac for a while a long time ago, but I never thought it did anything good or bad. No relation to it in my case anyway.
Are you sure you're not just in a horrible monotonous routine that may be causing the monotonous feelings? Do you have a job? You seem to suggest that you don't and are doing nothing.
Granted... it could be quite a cyclical thing... but if normal people were doing nothing like that, they'd be feeling anhedonia and pointlessness too. Worth looking into the possibility that it's more caused by circumstances. Hard to break out of a routine like that though anyway.
Well you see, I have no feelings or any emotions... I mean, it's been so long I don't even know what they even mean anymore, or what it's like to have emotions/feelings. I just remember before taking Prozac, I was completely a different person. If you type in "SSRI Anhedonia", you'll see a lot of people are suffering from what I am... most people recover, however, so far I haven't.
From my point of view, I don't see the purpose of doing anything anymore. I see everything as pointless, and money means nothing to me anymore. I just don't care about anything anymore, everything is meaningless to me... and I know it's not right, but there's nothing I can do about it.
Nothing makes me happy/sad/mad, I simply do not feel anything. I'm in some sort of zombie state and I hate it. I miss the high's/low's and everything about life.
I'm really not sure what caused it, but it might have to do with moving from place to place all the time when I was a kid and went to 13 schools until high school. And nobody was in the military.
I guess my brain got overwhelmed and became numb.
I don't feel like a person anymore. I recently tried Citalopram, but after 5 days I felt as if my body was panicking inside and my heart was beating rapidly so I stopped taking it.
What's the point of living like this? Is there any medication that can help?
I'm not a doctor or a psychiatrist, but to me, these mind altering drugs honestly can't be good for you. Unfortunately, I had to learn it the hard way (as always in life, if things couldn't get worst).
ALways had it to be honest. The meds make me more stable. I feel very little. Feel like some robot. Stimulants barely motivate me. Stress/bullying in my youth kinda kills the brain and I'm inside I'm barely alive. A process that can't be reversed it seems but I'm happy with who I am. I still have emotions, but I never express them. My social life is nothing, what about yours. Sorry to hear it anyway. Keep going on! No matter what!
I'm sorry to hear what you went through, but you see, you say you have emotions but don't express them... I have none whatseover. I'm in a complete, and flat out, zombie state that cannot be described. It is worst than physical pain... give me diabetes or some sort of physical illness instead of this emotional anesthesia/anhedonia that I am going through. This is simply inhumane... and I miss life. There was something magical and beautiful about life, but now, to me, everything is meaningless.
If you guys type in "Lost all my humanity, thanks bupropion" this guy is pretty much describing what I'm going through.
I'm not a professional (or an expert), but IMO, these "psychiatrists" who do absolutely nothing but sit on a chair, listen, not say a word, and then say "OK... I'll prescribe you this" writes your prescription, and off you go.
If you're a normal person just going through a rough time with situational problems, drugs will not help you, but screw you up real bad, maybe in the long term/permanent. These "psychiatrists" have no clue what these drugs even do to you. I'm not an anti-medicine person, but I wouldn't touch mind altering drugs ever again.
I'm just a fellow human being suffering from something that is inhumane... I feel like this is a living nightmare.