whats going on with me?
For the past 2 weeks I've been getting a strange feeling. Normally I'd say I'm pretty stable and that I just have to deal with SA but sometimes I'll feel something different, which is what I'm feeling now. Its really been years since I've felt this. It feels like I'm panicing and that I have to do something. I don't know what I have to do but I just feel that theres something I need to do and do it right away. I've been trying to calm myself but it doesn't work for long. To make things even more odd I feel really disconnected from everything. Like in a semi dream state. This is probably the strangest part, feels like I'm dreaming. The only positive part of it is I feel really really creative, like I can come up with ideas really easily. I feel consumed by it. I think its been triggered by recent events that I've taken pretty hard, friends, family, love or lack there of..stress from school..Its like when alot of things go wrong my state of mind gets thrown out of whack. One second I can be overly confident, the next I can be feeling apart ready to cry..I was diagnosed years ago with bipolar disorder but I felt like I 'grew out of it' bbut now with everything going on I feel like those old feelings are coming back..what do you guys think, I need some feedback from the perspective of others. I think I;m going to have to talk to my doc about this next time i see him...