What exactly is this?
So I made a post about this a couple years back. I never got it clarified but I just started thinking about it again.
Basically, I daydream a lot, about a fantastic lifestyle or putting myself in fantasy worlds like from movies or random stuff like that. When I do, I have to play with my hands to simulate the movement of myself, characters, and objects in my head and I make sounds to simulate.....sounds, lol.
It provides a clearer image for me and feels uncomfortable to not do those things. I've done this since childhood and I don't really get it. I do it in private because I get self conscious if someone sees me (even when I was 5 years old, I felt this way).
Now my brother does the same thing and he has Tourette syndrome but he also has audible tics beyond that and I do not. And a friend of mine has a daughter with autism and although that's probably a separate diagnosis all together, I noticed and found it interesting that she moved her hands in a similar fashion.
I'll probably end up asking my therapist about it, even though I find it embarrassing to reveal but I'm very curious as to what this is. And I thought I'd see if anyone here had a similar experience.
"He's dying to get away, let the pain of yesterday go slipping through the cracks
Hiding himself away, watching all the memories fade away from red to black"