Hey everyone im new here, I suffer from ptsd and social anxiety disorder caused by getting cancer in my teens which I was never able to put behind me, I actually hate myself for it and caused me ro loose almost all my self esteem and think im not good enough for anything or anyone even though I had a lot of friends and girlfriends etc, eventually I started absukng drugs just to not deal or think, immpresxribed 120 2mg xanax and 120 2mg klonopin obviously I dont take near close to that many but thats nor what my point of this post is.. I was also in 2 bad car accidents and was prescribed 180 30mg oxycodone IR and at first was using it normally occasion sniffing it , but iver the past 2 years ic been injecting them, is that considered self harm b.c I cant stop im more addicted to the act of shooting and seeing the blood shoot into the syringe and its caused me sxars to the point im ashamed to wear short sleeves and summer is a nightmare for me I just wear button ups wirh a shorr sleeved shirt umder it and leave it un buttoned then roll my sleeves up below my elbows which adds ro my social anxiety but as much as I wanr to stop and I know I can its just the scars and that I can never wear short sleeves again